Speechless

This few weeks I'm very frustrated with all the loads on my shoulder as they come at once. Some said I can manage things good enough if I was given the right environment and settings. But when it comes to managing my emotions and feelings on certain issue, it really kills me deeply. In ones eyes, I was like very calm and doing things all under control. But in facts, I was very lose and nervous to make a tough decision in my life. In the end, my wish was simple; I don't mind if I suffer the most pain on myself and just that I really want the others to be happy and smile as usual. Frankly speaking, I can hold the pain of a knife that penetrated my body, but seeing one to be left in the dark was the foremost thing that I can't do it.

Hope I can make one out of the rest.

Adios

Marcuz